I Wasn't Sure I'd Ever Type These Words Again...

I'm pregnant.

Now, to many of you, this is no shock.  Others, however, who may not know me in real life, or who just check in on our family through the blog, probably haven't heard the news yet.  Maybe you suspected because of my lack of posting lately.

My friend, Corrie, has a theory.  When someone doesn't update their blog for a while, or just have scant posts here and there, she says they've got to be pregnant!  Whelp, cls...I guess you were right this time!

Tomorrow, I will be 12 weeks along.  Apparently that is kind of a "magic" number when it comes to pregnancy.  My due date is May 7th, but that was set before we knew there were two, so we are looking more at around the 20th of April.

We have had some rough spots this first trimester, which is a large reason why I didn't share this news before now.  At times, it was really hard to keep it a secret, but I managed and here we are.  

Oh, and one TINY detail I left out...we are having TWINS!  

I'm going to post more about our journey later, but as most of you know it has taken us many years, multiple heartaches, and thousands of dollars to get to this point.  But most of all, it has taken faith and lots of support and prayers from our friends and family!  

I can't wait to share our babies with you!  

And a special note to those of you who are still struggling with infertility and trying to conceive.  Please know I do not for ONE SECOND take this pregnancy for granted.  I thank God multiple times for the blessing He has bestowed on us.  And also know that I think and pray for each one of you who's heart is still breaking and aching and yearning for a baby of your own and for a chance to be pregnant.  I will never forget that time in my life and even now I have a hard time believing this is really happening for us.  I understand now, what the term "survivor's guilt" means.  But God is so merciful and so good and His timing is perfect.  I have learned this over the last 4 years, in a way I would never want to wish on anyone, even my worst enemy. 

Ladies who are struggling, don't give up.  I know that is so cliche, but honestly it is what's in my heart. As I began to see this time in my life as a learning and growing experience, God gave me insights and eye-opening moments I never would have had if we hadn't been on this journey.  My faith has been tested to it's very limits, but He has been victorious in all of it!  Glory to God, who has formed these babies and allowed me to be their mother. 

We have seen a maternal/fetal specialist now and will see them again Thursday the 28th, as well as visit with our fertility doctor for the LAST TIME.  That makes me very sad.  

But, I'm excited to meet our new OBGYN, Dr. Devine (what a great name, huh?) and get started in the 2nd trimester.  

We covet your prayers right now.  Although we've made it past the "crucial" stage, because I am carrying twins, as well as some other factors, I am considered "high risk."  That's a scary term.  My goal is to make it to 37 weeks with these babes, so would you pray that for and with us?  Thank you, Blends.  

Seriously, y'all...is this really real?  Um, I'm starving and I have to pee...AGAIN!  Yep, it's real!

I will add some pictures in my next posts!